Progress not Perfection

This is the end week one and I am trying to not focus on the weight loss aspect of being on Weight Watchers but also the other positive things that are coming from it.  I've definitely made some progress this past week. I reached my goal to workout 30 minutes for 4 days this week, I stuck to my points values through the whole week with the exception of one day in which I used my flex points when I went to Chili's with my friend. I had the chicken fajitas and a little bit of chips and salsa which were very good and I found myself taking a to go plate because I became full quickly another move toward progress: Taking my body's hunger cues and listening to it instead of stuffing myself despite of the fact that I was full. I did have an el presidente margarita but I asked for one glass instead of them bringing the big shaker which holds about 3 servings in it. Yay me! Scaling back on portions is definitely a move toward progress. As for the scale, well it hasn't moved much this week but that's okay I'm not giving up and I'm sure that if I keep doing what I am doing then it will all eventually fall into place. Writing this and focusing on the positive things that I have done myself really helps me take my mind off of the numbers on my scale and it helps me to see that I am well on my way in my journey of making this lifestyle change. I'm aiming  for progress not perfection.

Day 1

Day 1 went fairly well, I had a busy day today. I took the kids to school annd right afterwards I went to the track for a 30 minnute walk. I then went to the grocery store to pick up what was supposed to be a "few" things, needless to say that the person that said never go grocery shopping hungry knew what they were talking about. I then went to get my oil changed so I had a Weight Watchers double chocolate chip muffin which was quite good. I went and did some shopping and by noon headed home for a lunch of a grilled ham and cheese sandwich on honey wheat bread with a side of Campbell's Broccoli and Cheese Soup which is now my one of my favorites. Dinner was spaghetti and a piece of garlic toast and I still have some points to spare not sure if I am going to use on a dessert or just have seconds on the spaghetti. Even though it was a small portion I do feel satisfied at the moment. I haven't really been hungry but I am going to have to get used to having regular portion sizes again. It's funny how I always thought I was doing the right thing when I was eyeballing my portions. Boy, was a way off! Then I wondered why the scale never moved. On another note, I am praying that the Lord deliver me from this toxic relationship that I have with food and for Him to give me the desire to get up and get some exercise so that I can lose some of this weight. I have no certain amount that I want to lose. My main goal as of now is to have a better relationship with food. I will have more to come on my relationship with food as my journey continues. Today I just wanted to check in and and tell how my day has gone so far.

The Day Before D-Day

As of today, January 25, 2011 will mark the first day of D-Day. The D can stand for a number of things from desire, diet, and finally dread. Dreaded because I have been on this weight loss roller coaster all of my life. Watching the numbers go up and down on the scale over the years can be frustrating. Sometimes it makes me want to give up and just accept the body that I am in for what it is but deep inside I feel like that would be a coward's way out. I know I can do it, and I know I would feel a whole lot better once I get the weight off. Not just for vanity but also for health reasons being that I have had a knee surgery and the extrea weight could put me right back in the operating room because of the strain on my knees. So I have decided to return back to WW (Weight Watchers) I've done it and have been succesful until I left the program at a time where I felt I could do it alone but I wasn't quite ready and gained the weight back. As of October  2010 I am down 13lbs which is a good start. But as I see myself becoming frustrated with the struggle I have decided that I'm going to try this blogging thing. I am a very private person but if this is what I have to do in order to keep myself  and hopefully others motivated along the way then I am willing to do  it by any means necessary. Working nights is hard to squeeze in a routine for working out and measuring foods and counting points. I have thought about what made me successful at my last attempt at WW and I have devised a plan for this time around. Since I work long hours on the night shift I should probably make it easier on myself by buying WW smart ones and maybe even the WW breakfast foods as well for those days that I have to work to take the guess work out of counting points and to plan and measure out the foods that I plan to cook for dinner ahead of time. I have invested in an elliptical trainer from Sears that should be delivered this week and it should make working out easier for me being that I will not have to leave the house and I will have it in a place where I have to look at it and pass it everyday which will motivate me to workout. Well it's about time for me to wrap this thing up and go to bed I am posting a before photo and hopefully soon after there will be some after photos as well.